sweatermuppet:

oh cool it’s decemeber! *grieves & grieves & grieves & grieves &*

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lonlinesswontbethedeathofme:

I’m going to NOT think about life by posting this.

Today is Oliver Scott Sykes’ birthday. My fucking hero.
My music is literally the only thing I will ever have when I’m alone.

I remember nights I literally just wanted to do every bad thing in the book, where I just wanted to never wake up again and sleep forever.

to just kill myself. anything. I wanted ANYTHING for relief.

And they were there.

Sempiternal is probably my highest regard in my entire life. I cannot express how much I absolutely adore this album. I can’t. i can wear the shirts, wear the bracelets, listen to it as much as possible (which is probably once a day) but I just can’t express how much I truly absolutely fucking love this album. 

It came out at the right time, when I wanted to kill myself the most. it carried me through literally everything in my fucking life, bad times, heartbreak, happiness, whatever. it’s absolutely beautiful. I just. I can’t. And I mean literally everything. My parents, my job, my friends, the person i like, the person i love.

Even when I was having a really bad trip when I smoked. It was the only, the ONLY thing that could calm me down. No other music helped me. Sempiternal did.

There Is A Hell is a wonderful album too, listening to it now, it just brings back all of my old feelings. and Suicide Season is just amazing too.

But Sempiternal. It literally changed my entire life, much for the better.

Oliver is 27 years old and I really believe I owe my life to him.

Seeing him at Warped tour and being able to give him the picture I made and having him look so genuinely happy that I had given it to him, and him giving me a hug… Being able to make my hero happy…

That was literally the best day of my entire life. It doesnt seem like much but really whenever I think about them that’s what I remember and it meant the ENTIRE world to me. 

Standing in the crowd for warped and going nuts during Antivist. I just can’t even, and crying during oliver’s speech for Sleepwalking. I just. i gave it everything I had and that’s just the best.

I just.

I owe them all my life.

Not just Oliver… Matt, Lee, Jordan, Matt….like… All of them.

I just love them so much.

They will never know how much they all and their music means to me…Even though you’ll never see this….:

Happy birthday, Oliver.

C:

godshideouscreation:

If you think about me you have to tell me, that’s the rule.

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spookyearp:

not to be a downer but your twenties are super hard and super lonely and tv lied and it’s not glamorous at all and if you are having a hard time it’s ok and it’s normal and you’ll be ok

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hiolivejuicee:

I crave simple things with the right company.

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sweet-suggestions:

Sometimes “getting better” means it hurts less to get up in the morning. Means it is a bit easier to step into the shower. Means small things make you smile again. This is okay. “Getting better” doesn’t have to be giant steps. I’m so proud of you, no matter what.

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i-will-recover-tomorrow:

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angelicscum:

I!!! HATE!!! MY!!! BODY!!! SO!!! FUCKING!!! MUCH!!!

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abnormall:

i am filled with hate towards myself and the world. its difficult finding a reason to live in a world that’s unfit for people like me. 

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tkkatherineblog:

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mement0mori:

can you even imagine not being dead inside

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killed-long-ago:

“And even though I tried It all fell apart..”

— In the End - Linkin Park

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narcoticoutsider:

When I say “I hate my body” I don’t mean “oh I’m a little insecure about my belly” or “I could lose a few pounds” I mean I have physically repulsed by it. It’s horrifying and upsetting to see. I wanna crawl out of my skin.

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